Baby steps to my babies

It can be really hard to step out in faith everyday during an adoption process. I fail at this many days. Today I saw this picture and thought, yes, that’s exactly what I needed. I need to get out of my own way!   I start to think this won’t be possible and want to give up, but another day I may feel like I can totally do it somehow!  :D  I need to just keep going. Yes, it looks impossible when I step back and look at the giant mountain. If I focus only on the one step directly in front of me, I can keep going. I can take that one little next step. After a million-gazillion of those, I’ll be at the top of the mountain. 

Thank you Meryl Streep! 


Not much of an update kind of update.

      I haven’t written much in here because there’s not much to announce at this point. We are in a combination of finishing our home study, completing our USCIS stuff, and working on our dossier. 

     Tons of paperwork and lots of progress, but probably nothing that would sound fun to you all. ;D  

     We are working hard on saving/raising the funds to adopt these two. We have about $40,000 to go. I am working, fundraising, and saving anywhere I can. Progress is very slow, but I just have to remind myself that any progress is still progress. I will find a way to make the money it takes to get them here. I have no idea how, but I know that I will keep working until I figure it out. :)

     Eden turned 6 last month and Ezra turns 2 this month. Sweet babies. I pray these are their last birthdays with out a family to celebrate with them. 

     My kids are so excited to have Eden and Ezra join us!  I am starting to have moments where I let myself get excited because I’m starting to believe just a bit that this is really happening. That I am this blessed. 

      For now, we will just keep working on the mundane daily tasks like paperwork, doctor appts, etc., and wait for the big things to get completed (home study, i800a, dossier). :) 


Gungor Baby

Oh my gosh. Beautiful. Wonderful. So much of this deeply resonates with me. On a different level, but still, these children we are bringing home (also the children we have home) are perfect in His eyes.

I will be printing this out to reread again. So wonderful. So beautiful. Here are my favorite parts of their post: 

‘Fearfully and wonderfully made.’

So I took out my phone and googled Psalm 139. I placed my hand on Lisa’s belly and read: “You created her inmost being;”

That phrase unearthed a new reservoir of tears for both Lisa and I. It took a long time before I could gain composure to continue reading. But eventually the words washed over us like a waterfall.

‘You knit her together in her mother’s womb.

We praise you because she is fearfully and wonderfully made

Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Her frame was not hidden from you

When she was made in the secret place,

When she was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw her unformed body;

All the days ordained for her were written in your book

Before one of them came to be.

How precious are your thoughts of her oh God

How vast is the sum of them

Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand’


What is so crazy to me is how many of my friends who have adopted kids who have big hurdles have used Gungor music to help them through it. Particularly the song Beautiful Things. It is almost like they were perfectly prepared for this moment without even knowing it…


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Here’s the video of the song Beautiful Things. <3